roundtable comrades
roundtable comrades
by Douglas Hardman
Dear reader,
Embark with me now
For I will tell a tale
Of the bravest heroes
I ever did know
The quick-witted Lady Bonnie approaches
Steel-clad skin hides her generational trauma
War-torn from getaway cars and dirty politics
Yet, she still brings sunshine to my darkness
Favoring my laughter over the noise of it all
She smiles with me to conceal the pain
And I, in return, offer the same
Summer sun forevermore
A mother and a wife, she fights her battles every day
The emotional turmoil of her inner thoughts
Deep scars dug in by motherly scorn
A household divided by two ideologies
These metaphysical and metaphorical dragons
Never stand a chance against her arms
And still she finds time to remind me that she loves me--
A simple message in a bottle she sends every day
And my love for her remains eternal
Both a muse and a mentor
Her triumph inspires and nourishes my pen
Inscribed in my sonnets for the remainder of time
Summer sun forevermore
*
The Fire Ally with steadfast nerves awaits
Intelligent charisma emanating from her presence
Her travels have left her seasoned and nurturing to many
She was a constant in a troublesome sea
As a doctor and a friend,
She tends to my complicated woes and fair-weather foes
My knife wounds smoothed
With medicine of good company like a child’s favorite forgotten dish
Sage words soothed
Her balance grounds me in an ebbing sea
And she always shines fresh perspective
To my overthought plots
She beckons me to the rooftop to escape the noise
And it’s hard to not take her advice in the chaos
Cleansing the room and smudging out the negative auras
I learned quickly that black and white problems
Simply meant I was colorblind to simple solutions
Sage words soothed
*
The sharp-tongued Mother Crab beckons
Overly protective as if I were their own
He is emotional to a fault, but never has a non-sensible thought
He never once strayed from my side, even when the battle felt unwinnable
Two martyrs against an army of bad mistakes
And once the arms are laid to rest in the evening
The banter of two veterans bundled in their shared grief
Added more warmth to the drinks they were able to knock back
Gin for the soldiers
A friend, a confidant and an equal on the field
I never once worried what my words might stir
My darkest fears spilled into his ears
And I never felt like a burden he had to bear
He taught me to bite the bullet, against all odds
Even when I thought the war is done
It is never truly won
But having him by my side, stein in hand
We bravely march to the beat of our own drum
Gin for the soldiers
*
The fiercely authentic Madame Baddie arrives
Her saucy audacity always lit up the tavern
Sensual in her draws, rational in her execution
She found me alone in her territory and lifted me up
A former colleague now turned trusty companion
I have found a forever lover
Clandestine soulmate
Late night songstress, serenading me in busy bars
Dancing barefoot in the wild streetlights
Fresh espresso and cosmic liquors bless our tongues
Taking my hand and dragging me into the unknown
She reminds me life is meant to be lived
With her fearlessness, I never have to worry about being someone else
What once felt impossible or reckless
Now resides within me as core, mercurial memories
And I know I will keep her with me for the next night of debauchery
Clandestine soulmate
*
And now, a reservedly optimistic Brother Fish
Simple in his bashful mannerisms
Since the beginning of his time, he has only shown kindness
My complications with accepting a higher power unfurled
I was seeking something different, the past had left me lost
And I had the tools to search for it
He came into my life right when the world started to make sense
Trauma bonded tribe
We soon became forged in tequila and teardrops
Similar story structure, different plot points
A deeper understanding from a haunting, mutual experience
He never once let me down, even with my guard dropped
This type of brotherhood has always escaped me
And like a true sibling, I slung brash words with love
My reservations have started to dissipate
Because his honesty relinquished my undying anxiety
Onward, triumphantly, into a new pride
Trauma bonded tribe
Dear reader,
You may have remembered
The lost war of yesteryears
The foot soldiers I sacrificed
In an attempt to sabotage my life
I’ve made my reprimands
The graves have been dug
I’ve hung up my bayonet
I’m happy to inform you
This crop of fellows
Will not have to lift their arms
In my self-discovery
Those who have found me
New and old
Continue to mold me
And I hope they know
How much they mean to me
In the darkest of darkest times
They have saved me
Sincerely
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Featured in our September 2022 issue, "Loyalty"